CHAPTER XIII
THE ANSWER OF THE SPHINX
Moonlight in the desert.
Jane ordered her after-dinner coffee on the piazza of the hotel,
that she might lose as little as possible of the mystic loveliness
of the night. The pyramids appeared so huge and solid, in the clear
white light; and the Sphinx gathered unto itself more mystery.
Jane promised herself a stroll round by moonlight presently.
Meanwhile she lay back in a low wicker chair, comfortably
upholstered, sipping her coffee, and giving herself up to the sense
of dreamy content which, in a healthy body, is apt to follow
vigorous exertion.
Very tender and quiet thoughts of Garth came to her this evening,
perhaps brought about by the associations of moonlight.
"The moon shines bright:--in such a night as this,
When the sweet wind did gently kiss the trees,
And they did make no noise--"
Ah! the great poet knew the effect upon the heart of a vivid
reminder to the senses. Jane now passed beneath the spell.
To begin with, Garth's voice seemed singing everywhere:
"Enable with perpetual light
The dulness of our blinded sight."
Then from out the deep blue and silvery light, Garth's dear adoring
eyes seemed watching her. Jane closed her own, to see them better.
To-night she did not feel like shrinking from them, they were so
full of love.
No shade of critical regard was in them. Ah! had she wronged him
with her fears for the future? Her heart seemed full of trust to-
night, full of confidence in him and in herself. It seemed to her
that if he were here she could go out with him into this brilliant
moonlight, seat herself upon some ancient fallen stone, and let him
kneel in front of her and gaze and gaze in his persistent way, as
much as he pleased. In thought there seemed to-night no shrinking
from those dear eyes. She felt she would say: "It is all your own,
Garth, to look at when you will. For your sake, I could wish it
beautiful; but if it is as you like it, my own Dear, why should I
hide it from you?"
What had brought about this change of mind? Had Deryck's
prescription done its full work? Was this a saner point of view than
the one she had felt constrained to take when she arrived, through
so much agony of renunciation, at her decision? Instead of going up
the Nile, and then to Constantinople and Athens, should she take the
steamer which sailed from Alexandria to-morrow, be in London a week
hence, send for Garth, make full confession, and let him decide as
to their future?
That he loved her still, it never occurred to Jane to doubt. At the
very thought of sending for him and telling him the simple truth, he
seemed so near her once more, that she could feel the clasp of his
arms, and his head upon her heart. And those dear shining eyes! Oh,
Garth, Garth!
"One thing is clear to me to-night," thought Jane. "If he still
needs me--wants me--I cannot live any longer away from him. I must
go to him." She opened her eyes and looked towards the Sphinx. The
whole line of reasoning which had carried such weight at Shenstone
flashed through her mind in twenty seconds. Then she closed her eyes
again and clasped her hands upon her bosom.
"I will risk it," she said; and deep joy awoke within her heart.
A party of English people came from the dining-room on to the piazza
with a clatter. They had arrived that evening and gone in late to
dinner. Jane had hardly noticed them,--a handsome woman and her
daughter, two young men, and an older man of military appearance.
They did not interest Jane, but they broke in upon her reverie; for
they seated themselves at a table near by and, in truly British
fashion, continued a loud-voiced conversation, as if no one else
were present. One or two foreigners, who had been peacefully
dreaming over coffee and cigarettes, rose and strolled away to quiet
seats under the palm trees. Jane would have done the same, but she
really felt too comfortable to move, and afraid of losing the sweet
sense of Garth's nearness. So she remained where she was.
The elderly man held in his hand a letter and a copy of the MORNING
POST, just received from England. They were discussing news
contained in the letter and a paragraph he had been reading aloud
from the paper.
"Poor fellow! How too sad!" said the chaperon of the party.
"I should think he would sooner have been killed outright!"
exclaimed the girl. "I know I would."
"Oh, no," said one of the young men, leaning towards her. "Life is
sweet, under any circumstances."
"Oh, but blind!" cried the young voice, with a shudder. "Quite blind
for the rest of one's life. Horrible!"
"Was it his own gun?" asked the older woman. "And how came they to
be having a shooting party in March?"
Jane smiled a fierce smile into the moonlight. Passionate love of
animal life, intense regard for all life, even of the tiniest
insect, was as much a religion with her as the worship of beauty was
with Garth. She never could pretend sorrow over these accounts of
shooting accidents, or falls in the hunting-field. When those who
went out to inflict cruel pain were hurt themselves; when those who
went forth to take eager, palpitating life, lost their own; it
seemed to Jane a just retribution. She felt no regret, and pretended
none. So now she smiled fiercely to herself, thinking: "One pair of
eyes the less to look along a gun and frustrate the despairing dash
for home and little ones of a terrified little mother rabbit. One
hand that will never again change a soaring upward flight of
spreading wings, into an agonised mass of falling feathers. One
chance to the good, for the noble stag, as he makes a brave run to
join his hinds in the valley."
Meanwhile the military-looking man had readjusted his eye-glasses
and was holding the sheets of a closely written letter to the light.
"No," he said after a moment, "shooting parties are over. There is
nothing doing on the moors now. They were potting bunnies."
"Was he shooting?" asked the girl.
"No," replied the owner of the letter, "and that seems such hard
luck. He had given up shooting altogether a year or two ago. He
never really enjoyed it, because he so loved the beauty of life and
hated death in every form. He has a lovely place in the North, and
was up there painting. He happened to pass within sight of some
fellows rabbit-shooting, and saw what he considered cruelty to a
wounded rabbit. He vaulted over a gate to expostulate and to save
the little creature from further suffering. Then it happened. One of
the lads, apparently startled, let off his gun. The charge struck a
tree a few yards off, and the shot glanced. It did not strike him
full. The face is only slightly peppered and the brain quite
uninjured. But shots pierced the retina of each eye, and the sight
is hopelessly gone."
"Awful hard luck," said the young man.
"I never can understand a chap not bein' keen on shootin'," said the
youth who had not yet spoken.
"Ah, but you would if you had known him," said the soldier. "He was
so full of life and vivid vitality. One could not imagine him either
dying or dealing death. And his love of the beautiful was almost a
form of religious worship. I can't explain it; but he had a way of
making you see beauty in things you had hardly noticed before. And
now, poor chap, he can't see them himself."
"Has he a mother?" asked the older woman.
"No, he has no one. He is absolutely alone. Scores of friends of
course; he was a most popular man about town, and could stay in
almost any house in the kingdom if he chose to send a post-card to
say he was coming. But no relations, I believe, and never would
marry. Poor chap! He will wish he had been less fastidious, now. He
might have had the pick of all the nicest girls, most seasons. But
not he! Just charming friendships, and wedded to his art. And now,
as Lady Ingleby, says, he lies in the dark, helpless and alone."
"Oh, do talk of something else!" cried the girl, pushing back her
chair and rising. "I want to forget it. It's too horribly sad. Fancy
what it must be to wake up and not know whether it is day or night,
and to have to lie in the dark and wonder. Oh, do come out and talk
of something cheerful."
They all rose, and the young man slipped his hand through the girl's
arm, glad of the excuse her agitation provided.
"Forget it, dear," he said softly. "Come on out and see the old
Sphinx by moonlight."
They left the piazza, followed by the rest of the party; but the man
to whom the MORNING POST belonged laid it on the table and stayed
behind, lighting a cigar.
Jane rose from her chair and came towards him.
"May I look at your paper?" she said abruptly.
"Certainly," he replied, with ready courtesy. Then, looking more
closely at her: "Why, certainly, Miss Champion. And how do you do? I
did not know you were in these parts."
"Ah, General Loraine! Your face seemed familiar, but I had not
recognised you, either. Thanks, I will borrow this if I may. And
don't let me keep you from your friends. We shall meet again by and
by."
Jane waited until the whole party had passed out of sight and until
the sound of their voices and laughter had died away in the
distance. Then she returned to her chair, the place where Garth had
seemed so near. She looked once more at the Sphinx and at the huge
pyramid in the moonlight.
Then she took up the paper and opened it.
"Enable with perpetual light
The dulness of our blinded sight."
Yes--it was Garth Dalmain--HER Garth, of the adoring shining eyes--
who lay at his house in the North; blind, helpless, and alone.
