CHAPTER XXXI
IN LIGHTER VEIN
Dinner that evening, the first at their small round table, was a
great success. Nurse Rosemary's plans all worked well; and Garth
delighted in arrangements which made him feel less helpless.
The strain of the afternoon brought its reaction of merriment. A
little judicious questioning drew forth further stories of the
duchess and her pets; and Miss Champion's name came in with a
frequency which they both enjoyed.
It was a curious experience for Jane, to hear herself described in
Garth's vivid word-painting. Until that fatal evening at Shenstone,
she had been remarkably free from self-consciousness; and she had no
idea that she had a way of looking straight into people's eyes when
she talked to them, and that that was what muddled up "the silly
little minds of women who say they are afraid of her, and that she
makes them nervous! You see she looks right into their shallow
shuffling little souls, full of conceited thoughts about themselves,
and nasty ill-natured thoughts about her; and no wonder they grow
panic-stricken, and flee; and talk of her as 'that formidable Miss
Champion.' I never found her formidable; but, when I had the chance
of a real talk with her, I used to be thankful I had nothing of
which to be ashamed. Those clear eyes touched bottom every time, as
our kindred over the water so expressively put it."
Neither had Jane any idea that she always talked with a poker, if
possible; building up the fire while she built up her own argument;
or attacking it vigorously, while she demolished her opponent's;
that she stirred the fire with her toe, but her very smart boots
never seemed any the worse; that when pondering a difficult problem,
she usually stood holding her chin in her right hand, until she had
found the solution. All these small characteristics Garth described
with vivid touch, and dwelt upon with a tenacity of remembrance,
which astonished Jane, and revealed him, in his relation to herself
three years before, in a new light.
His love for her had been so suddenly disclosed, and had at once had
to be considered as a thing to be either accepted or put away; so
that when she decided to put it away, it seemed not to have had time
to become in any sense part of her life. She had viewed it; realised
all it might have meant; and put it from her.
But now she understood how different it had been for Garth. During
the week which preceded his declaration, he had realised, to the
full, the meaning of their growing intimacy; and, as his certainty
increased, he had more and more woven her into his life; his vivid
imagination causing her to appear as his beloved from the first;
loved and wanted, when as yet they were merely acquaintances;
kindred spirits; friends.
To find herself thus shrined in his heart and memory was infinitely
touching to Jane; and seemed to promise, with sweet certainty, that
it would not be difficult to come home there to abide, when once all
barriers between them were removed.
After dinner, Garth sat long at the piano, filling the room with
harmony. Once or twice the theme of The Rosary crept in, and Jane
listened anxiously for its development; but almost immediately it
gave way to something else. It seemed rather to haunt the other
melodies, than to be actually there itself.
When Garth left the piano, and, guided by the purple cord, reached
his chair, Nurse Rosemary said gently "Mr. Dalmain, can you spare me
for a few days at the end of this week?"
"Oh, why?" said Garth. "To go where? And for how long? Ah, I know I
ought to say: 'Certainly! Delighted!' after all your goodness to me.
But I really cannot! You don't know what life was without you, when
you week-ended! That week-end seemed months, even though Brand was
here. It is your own fault for making yourself so indispensable."
Nurse Rosemary smiled. "I daresay I shall not be away for long," she
said. "That is, if you want me, I can return. But, Mr. Dalmain, I
intend to-night to write that letter of which I told you. I shall
post it to-morrow. I must follow it up almost immediately. I must be
with him when he receives it, or soon afterwards. I think--I hope--
he will want me at once. This is Monday. May I go on Thursday?"
Poor Garth looked blankly dismayed.
"Do nurses, as a rule, leave their patients, and rush off to their
young men in order to find out how they have liked their letters?"
he inquired, in mock protest.
"Not as a rule, sir," replied Nurse Rosemary, demurely. "But this is
an exceptional case."
"I shall wire to Brand."
"He will send you a more efficient and more dependable person."
"Oh you wicked little thing!" cried Garth. "If Miss Champion were
here, she would shake you! You, know perfectly well that nobody
could fill your place!"
"It is good of you to say so, sir," replied Nurse Rosemary, meekly.
"And is Miss Champion much addicted to shaking people?"
"Don't call me 'sir'! Yes; when people are tiresome she often says
she would like to shake them; and one has a mental vision of how
their teeth would chatter. There is a certain little lady of our
acquaintance whom we always call 'Mrs. Do-and-don't.' She isn't in
our set; but she calls upon it; and sometimes it asks her to lunch,
for fun. If you inquire whether she likes a thing, she says: 'Well,
I do, and I don't.' If you ask whether she is going to a certain
function, she says: 'Well, I am, and I'm not.' And if you send her a
note, imploring a straight answer to a direct question, the answer
comes back: 'Yes AND no.' Miss Champion used to say she would like
to take her up by the scruff of her feather boa, and shake her,
asking at intervals: 'Shall I stop?' so as to wring from Mrs. Do-
and-don't a definite affirmative, for once."
"Could Miss Champion carry out such a threat? Is she a very massive
person?"
"Well, she could, you know; but she wouldn't. She is most awfully
kind, even to little freaks she laughs at. No, she isn't massive.
That word does not describe her at all. But she is large, and very
finely developed. Do you know the Venus of Milo? Yes; in the Louvre.
I am glad you know Paris. Well, just imagine the Venus of Milo in a
tailor-made coat and skirt,--and you have Miss Champion."
Nurse Rosemary laughed, hysterically. Either the Venus of Milo, or
Miss Champion, or this combination of both, proved too much for her.
"Little Dicky Brand summed up Mrs. Do-and-don't rather well,"
pursued Garth. "She was calling at Wimpole Street, on Lady Brand's
'at home' day. And Dicky stood talking to me, in his black velvets
and white waistcoat, a miniature edition of Sir Deryck. He indicated
Mrs. Do-and-don't on a distant lounge, and remarked: 'THAT lady
never KNOWS; she always THINKS. I asked her if her little girl might
come to my party, and she said: "I think so." Now if she had asked
ME if I was coming to HER party, I should have said: "Thank you; I
am." It is very trying when people only THINK about important
things, such as little girls and parties; because their thinking
never amounts to much. It does not so much matter what they think
about other things--the weather, for instance; because that all
happens, whether they think or not. Mummie asked that lady whether
it was raining when she got here; and she said: "I THINK not." I
can't imagine why Mummie always wants to know what her friends think
about the weather. I have heard her ask seven ladies this afternoon
whether it is raining. Now if father or I wanted to know whether it
was raining we should just step over to the window, and look out;
and then come back and go do with really interesting conversation.
But Mummie asks them whether it is raining, or whether they think it
has been raining, or is going to rain; and when they have told her,
she hurries away and asks somebody else. I asked the thinking lady
in the feather thing, whether she knew who the father and mother
were, of the young lady whom Cain married; and she said: "Well, I
do; and I don't." I said: "If you DO, perhaps you will tell me. And
if you DON'T, perhaps you would like to take my hand, and we will
walk over together and ask the Bishop--the one with the thin legs,
and the gold cross, talking to Mummie." But she thought she had to
go, quite in a hurry. So I saw her off; and then asked the Bishop
alone. Bishops are most satisfactory kind of people; because they
are quite sure about everything; and you feel safe in quoting them
to Nurse. Nurse told Marsdon that this one is in "sheep's clothing,"
because he wears a gold cross. I saw the cross; but I saw no sheep's
clothing. I was looking out for the kind of woolly thing our new
curate wears on his back in church. Should you call that "sheep's
clothing"? I asked father, and he said: "No. Bunny-skin." And mother
seemed as shocked as if father and I had spoken in church, instead
of just as we came out. And she said: "It is a B.A. hood." Possibly
she thinks "baa" is spelled with only one "a." Anyway father and I
felt it best to let the subject drop.'"
Nurse Rosemary laughed. "How exactly like Dicky," she said. "I could
hear his grave little voice, and almost see him pull down his small
waistcoat!"
"Why, do you know the little chap?" asked Garth.
"Yes," replied Nurse Rosemary; "I have stayed with them. Talking to
Dicky is an education; and Baby Blossom is a sweet romp. Here comes
Simpson. How quickly the evening has flown. Then may I be off on
Thursday?"
"I am helpless," said Garth. "I cannot say 'no.' But suppose you do
not come back?"
"Then you can wire to Dr. Brand."
"I believe you want to leave me," said Garth reproachfully.
"I do, and I don't!" laughed Nurse Rosemary; and fled from his
outstretched hands.
* * * * * * *
When Jane had locked the letter-bag earlier that evening, and handed
it to Simpson, she had slipped in two letters of her own. One was
addressed to Georgina, Duchess of Meldrum
Portland Place
The other, to
Sir Deryck Brand
Wimpole Street
Both were marked: Urgent. If absent, forward immediately.
