VII
THE SHADOW IN THE SUNLIGHT
The torn web fell--the last veil of the Strange Hathor. It fell, and
all its unravelled threads of glittering gold and scarlet rippled and
coiled about the Wanderer's feet, and about the pillars of the loom.
The web was torn, the veil was rent, the labour was lost, the pictured
story of loves and wars was all undone.
But there, white in the silvery dusk of the alabaster shrine, there
was the visible Helen, the bride and the daughter of Mystery, the
World's Desire!
There shone that fabled loveliness of which no story was too strange,
of which all miracles seemed true. There, her hands folded on her lap,
her head bowed--there sat she whose voice was the echo of all sweet
voices, she whose shape was the mirror of all fair forms, she whose
changeful beauty, so they said, was the child of the changeful moon.
Helen sat in a chair of ivory, gleaming even through the sunshine of
her outspread hair. She was clothed in soft folds of white; on her
breast gleamed the Starstone, the red stone of the sea-deeps that
melts in the sunshine, but that melted not on the breast of Helen.
Moment by moment the red drops from the ruby heart of the star fell on
her snowy raiment, fell and vanished,--fell and vanished,--and left no
stain.
The Wanderer looked on her face, but the beauty and the terror of it,
as she raised it, were more than he could bear, and he stood like
those who saw the terror and the beauty of that face which changes men
to stone.
For the lovely eyes of Helen stared wide, her lips, yet quivering with
the last notes of song, were wide open in fear. She seemed like one
who walks alone, and suddenly, in the noonday light, meets the hated
dead; encountering the ghost of an enemy come back to earth with the
instant summons of doom.
For a moment the sight of her terror made even the Wanderer afraid.
What was the horror she beheld in this haunted shrine, where was none
save themselves alone? What was with them in the shrine?
Then he saw that her eyes were fixed on his golden armour which Paris
once had worn, on the golden shield with the blazon of the White Bull,
on the golden helm, whose visor was down so that it quite hid his eyes
and his face--and then at last her voice broke from her:
"/Paris! Paris! Paris!/ Has Death lost hold of thee? Hast thou come to
drag me back to thee and to shame? Paris, dead Paris! Who gave thee
courage to pass the shadows of men whom on earth thou hadst not dared
to face in war?"
Then she wrung her hands, and laughed aloud with the empty laugh of
fear.
A thought came into that crafty mind of the Wanderer's, and he
answered her, not in his own voice, but in the smooth, soft, mocking
voice of the traitor, Paris, whom he had heard forswear himself in the
oath before Ilios.
"So, lady, thou hast not yet forgiven Paris? Thou weavest the ancient
web, thou singest the ancient songs--art thou still unkind as of old?"
"Why art thou come back to taunt me?" she said, and now she spoke as
if an old familiar fear and horror were laying hold of her and
mastering her again, after long freedom. "Was it not enough to betray
me in the semblance of my wedded lord? Why dost thou mock?"
"In love all arts are fair," he answered in the voice of Paris. "Many
have loved thee, Lady, and they are all dead for thy sake, and no love
but mine has been more strong than death. There is none to blame us
now, and none to hinder. Troy is down, the heroes are white dust; only
Love lives yet. Wilt thou not learn, Lady, how a shadow can love?"
She had listened with her head bowed, but now she leaped up with
blazing eyes and face of fire.
"Begone!" she said, "the heroes are dead for my sake, and to my shame,
but the shame is living yet. Begone! Never in life or death shall my
lips touch the false lips that lied away my honour, and the false face
that wore the favour of my lord's."
For it was by shape-shifting and magic art, as poets tell, that Paris
first beguiled Fair Helen.
Then the Wanderer spoke again with the sweet, smooth voice of Paris,
son of Priam.
"As I passed up the shrine where thy glory dwells, Helen, I heard thee
sing. And thou didst sing of the waking of thy heart, of the arising
of Love within thy soul, and of the coming of one for whom thou dost
wait, whom thou didst love long since and shalt love for ever more.
And as thou sangest, I came, I Paris, who was thy love, and who am thy
love, and who alone of ghosts and men shall be thy love again. Wilt
thou still bid me go?"
"I sang," she answered, "yes, as the Gods put it in my heart so I sang
--for indeed it seemed to me that one came who was my love of old, and
whom alone I must love, alone for ever. But thou wast not in my heart,
thou false Paris! Nay, I will tell thee, and with the name will scare
thee back to Hell. He was in my heart whom once as a maid I saw
driving in his chariot through the ford of Eurotas while I bore water
from the well. He was in my heart whom once I saw in Troy, when he
crept thither clad in beggar's guise. Ay, Paris, I will name him by
his name, for though he is long dead, yet him alone methinks I loved
from the very first, and him alone I shall love till my deathlessness
is done--Odysseus, son of Laertes, Odysseus of Ithaca, he was named
among men, and Odysseus was in my heart as I sang and in my heart he
shall ever be, though the Gods in their wrath have given me to others,
to my shame, and against my will."
Now when the Wanderer heard her speak, and heard his own name upon her
lips, and knew that the Golden Helen loved him alone, it seemed to him
as though his heart would burst his harness. No word could he find in
his heart to speak, but he raised the visor of his helm.
She looked--she saw and knew him for Odysseus--even Odysseus of
Ithaca. Then in turn she hid her eyes with her hands, and speaking
through them said:
"Oh, Paris! ever wast thou false, but, ghost or man, of all thy shames
this is the shamefullest. Thou hast taken the likeness of a hero dead,
and thou hast heard me speak such words of him as Helen never spoke
before. Fie on thee, Paris! fie on thee! who wouldest trick me into
shame as once before thou didst trick me in the shape of Menelaus, who
was my lord. Now I will call on Zeus to blast thee with his bolts.
Nay, not on Zeus will I call, but on Odysseus' self. /Odysseus!
Odysseus!/ Come thou from the shades and smite this Paris, this
trickster, who even in death finds ways to mock thee."
She ceased, and with eyes upturned and arms outstretched murmured,
"Odysseus! Odysseus! Come."
Slowly the Wanderer drew near to the glory of the Golden Helen--
slowly, slowly he came, till his dark eyes looked into her eyes of
blue. Then at last he found his voice and spake.
"Helen! Argive Helen!" he said, "I am no shadow come up from Hell to
torment thee, and of Trojan Paris I know nothing. For I am Odysseus,
Odysseus of Ithaca, a living man beneath the sunlight. Hither am I
come to see thee, hither I am come to win thee to my heart. For yonder
in Ithaca Aphrodite visited me in a dream, and bade me wander out upon
the seas till at length I found thee, Helen, and saw the Red Star
blaze upon thy breast. And I have wandered, and I have dared, and I
have heard thy song, and rent the web of Fate, and I have seen the
Star, and lo! at last, at last! I find thee. Well I saw thou knewest
the arms of Paris, who was thy husband, and to try thee I spoke with
the voice of Paris, as of old thou didst feign the voices of our wives
when we lay in the wooden horse within the walls of Troy. Thus I drew
the sweetness of thy love from thy secret breast, as the sun draws out
the sweetness of the flowers. But now I declare myself to be Odysseus,
clad in the mail of Paris--Odysseus come on this last journey to be
thy love and lord." And he ceased.
She trembled and looked at him doubtfully, but at last she spoke:
"Well do I remember," she said, "that when I washed the limbs of
Odysseus, in the halls of Ilios, I marked a great white scar beneath
his knee. If indeed thou art Odysseus, and not a phantom from the
Gods, show me that great scar."
Then the Wanderer smiled, and, resting his buckler against the pillar
of the loom, drew off his golden greave, and there was the scar that
the boar dealt with his tusk on the Parnassian hill when Odysseus was
a boy.
"Look, Lady," he said; "is this the scar that once thine eyes looked
on in the halls of Troy?"
"Yea," she said, "it is the very scar, and now I know that thou art no
ghost and no lying shape, but Odysseus' self, come to be my love and
lord," and she looked most sweetly in his eyes.
Now the Wanderer wavered no more, but put out his arms to gather her
to his heart. Now the Red Star was hidden on his breast, now the red
drops dripped from the Star upon his mail, and the face of her who is
the World's Desire grew soft in the shadow of his helm, while her eyes
were melted to tears beneath his kiss. The Gods send all lovers like
joy!
Softly she sighed, softly drew back from his arms, and her lips were
opened to speak when a change came over her face. The kind eyes were
full of fear again, as she gazed where, through the window of the
shrine of alabaster, the sunlight flickered in gold upon the chapel
floor. What was that which flickered in the sunlight? or was it only
the dance of the motes in the beam? There was no shadow cast in the
sunshine; why did she gaze as if she saw another watching this meeting
of their loves? However it chanced, she mastered her fear; there was
even a smile on her lips and mirth in her eyes as she turned and spoke
again.
"Odysseus, thou art indeed the cunningest of men. Thou hast stolen my
secret by thy craft; who save thee would dream of craft in such an
hour? For when I thought thee Paris, and thy face was hidden by thy
helm, I called on Odysseus in my terror, as a child cries to a mother.
Methinks I have ever held him dear; always I have found him ready at
need, though the Gods have willed that till this hour my love might
not be known, nay, not to my own heart; so I called on Odysseus, and
those words were wrung from me to scare false Paris back to his own
place. But the words that should have driven Paris down to Hell drew
Odysseus to my breast. And now it is done, and I will not go back upon
my words, for we have kissed our kiss of troth, before the immortal
Gods have we kissed, and those ghosts who guard the way to Helen, and
whom thou alone couldst pass, as it was fated, are witnesses to our
oath. And now the ghosts depart, for no more need they guard the
beauty of Helen. It is given to thee to have and keep, and now is
Helen once more a very woman, for at thy kiss the curse was broken.
Ah, friend! since my lord died in pleasant Lacedæmon, what things have
I seen and suffered by the Gods' decree! But two things I will tell
thee, Odysseus, and thou shalt read them as thou mayest. Though never
before in thy life-days did thy lips touch mine, yet I know that not
now for the first time we kiss. And this I know also, for the Gods
have set it in my heart, that though our love shall be short, and
little joy shall we have one of another, yet death shall not end it.
For, Odysseus, I am a daughter of the Gods, and though I sleep and
forget that which has been in my sleep, and though my shape change as
but now it seemed to change in the eyes of those ripe to die, yet I
die not. And for thee, though thou art mortal, death shall be but as
the short summer nights that mark off day from day. For thou shalt
live again, Odysseus, as thou hast lived before, and life by life we
shall meet and love till the end is come."
As the Wanderer listened he thought once more of that dream of
Meriamun the Queen, which the priest Rei had told him. But he said
nothing of it to Helen; for about the Queen and her words to him it
seemed wisest not to speak.
"It will be well to live, Lady, if life by life I find thee for a
love."
"Life by life thou shalt find me, Odysseus, in this shape or in that
shalt thou find me--for beauty has many forms, and love has many
names--but thou shalt ever find me but to lose me again. I tell thee
that as but now thou wonnest thy way through the ranks of those who
watch me, the cloud lifted from my mind, and I remembered, and I
foresaw, and I knew why I, the loved of many, might never love in
turn. I knew then, Odysseus, that I am but the instrument of the Gods,
who use me for their ends. And I knew that I loved thee, and thee
only, but with a love that began before the birth-bed, and shall not
be consumed by the funeral flame."
"So be it, Lady," said the Wanderer, "for this I know, that never have
I loved woman or Goddess as I love thee, who art henceforth as the
heart in my breast, that without which I may not live."
"Now speak on," she said, "for such words as these are like music in
my ears."
"Ay, I will speak on. Short shall be our love, thou sayest, Lady, and
my own heart tells me that it is born to be brief of days. I know that
now I go on my last voyaging, and that death comes upon me from the
water, the swiftest death that may be. This then I would dare to ask:
When shall we twain be one? For if the hours of life be short, let us
love while we may."
Now Helen's golden hair fell before her eyes like the bride's veil,
and she was silent for a time. Then she spoke:
"Not now, and not while I dwell in this holy place may we be wed,
Odysseus, for so should we call down upon us the hate of Gods and men.
Tell me, then, where thou dwellest in the city, and I will come to
thee. Nay, it is not meet. Hearken, Odysseus. To-morrow, one hour
before the midnight, see that thou dost stand without the pylon gates
of this my temple; then I will pass out to thee as well I may, and
thou shalt know me by the jewel, the Star-stone on my breast that
shines through the darkness, and by that alone, and lead me whither
thou wilt. For then thou shalt be my lord, and I will be thy wife. And
thereafter, as the Gods show us, so will we go. For know, it is in my
mind to fly this land of Khem, where month by month the Gods have made
the people die for me. So till then, farewell, Odysseus, my love,
found after many days."
"It is well, Lady," answered the Wanderer. "To-morrow night I meet
thee without the pylon gates. I also am minded to fly this land of
witchcraft and of horror, but I may scarce depart till Pharaoh return
again. For he has gone down to battle and left me to guard his
palace."
"Of that we will talk hereafter. Go now! Go swiftly, for here we may
not talk more of earthly love," said the Golden Helen.
Then he took her hand and kissed it and passed from before her glory
as a man amazed.
But in his foolish wisdom he spoke no word to her of Meriamun the
Queen.
