CHAPTER LXV.
NEW VIEWS OF A PRIVILEGED ORDER.--THE DEATH-BED OF AUGUSTUS SAVILLE.
This event might indeed have been an era in the life of Percy Godolphin,
had that life been spared to a more extended limit than it was; and yet,
so long had his ambition been smoothed and polished away by his
peculiarities of thought, and so little was his calm and indifferent tone
of mind suited to the hot contests and nightly warfare of parliamentary
politics, that it is not probable he would ever have won a continuous and
solid distinction in a career which requires either obtuseness of mind or
enthusiasm of purpose to encounter the repeated mortifications and
failures which the most brilliant debutant ordinarily endures. As it was,
however, it produced a grave and solemn train of thought in Godolphin's
breast. He mused much over his past life, and the musing did not satisfy
him. He felt like one of those recorded in physiological history who have
been in a trance for years: and now slowly awakening, he acknowledged the
stir and rush of revived but confused emotions. Nature, perhaps, had
intended Godolphin for a poet; for, with the exception of the love of
glory, the poetical characteristics were rife within him; and over his
whole past existence the dimness of unexpressed poetical sensation had
clung and hovered. It was this which had deadened his soul to the active
world, and wrapped him in the land of dreams; it was this which had
induced that vague and restless dissatisfaction with the Actual which had
brought the thirst for the Ideal; it was this which had made him
fastidious in love, repining in pleasure, magnificent in luxury, seeking
and despising all things in the same breath. There are many, perhaps, of
this sort, who, having the poet's nature, have never found the poet's vent
to his emotions; have wandered over the visionary world without chancing
to discover the magic wand that was stored within the dark chamber of
their mind, and would have reduced the visions into shape and substance.
Alas! what existence can be more unfulfilled than that of one who has the
soul of the poet and not the skill? who has the susceptibility and the
craving, not the consolation or the reward?
But if this cloud of dreamlike emotion had so long hung over Godolphin, it
began now to melt away from his heart; a clearer and distincter view of
the large objects of life lay before him; and he felt that he was
standing, half stunned and passive, in the great crisis of his fate.
The day was now fixed for their departure to Wendover, when Saville was
taken alarmingly ill; Godolphin was sent for, late one evening. He found
the soi-disant Epicurean at the point of death, but in perfect possession
of his senses. The scene around him was emblematic of his life: save
Godolphin, not a friend was by. Saville had some dozen or two of natural
children--where were they? He had abandoned them to their fate: he knew
not of their existence, nor they of his death. Lonely in his selfishness
was he left to breathe out the small soul of a man of bon-ton! But I
must do Saville the justice to say, that if he was without the mourners
and the attendants that belonged to natural ties, he did not require them.
His was no whimpering exit from life: the champagne was drained to the
last drop; and Death, like the true boon companion, was about to shatter
the empty glass.
"Well, my friend," said Saville, feebly, but pressing with weak fingers
Godolphin's hand--"well, the game is up, the lights are going out, and
presently the last guest will depart, and all be darkness!" here the
doctor came to the bedside with a cordial. The dying man, before he took
it, fixed upon the leech an eye which, although fast glazing, still
retained something of its keen, searching shrewdness.
"Now tell me, my good sir, how many hours more can you keep in this--this
breath?"
The doctor looked at Godolphin.
"I understand you," said Saville; you are shy on these points. Never be
shy, my good fellow; it is inexcusable after twenty: besides, it is a bad
compliment to my nerves--a gentleman is prepared for every event. Sir, it
is only a roturier whom death, or anything else, takes by surprise. How
many hours, then, can I live?"
"Not many, I fear, sir: perhaps until daybreak."
"My day breaks about twelve o'clock, p.m.," said Saville, as drily as his
gasps would let him. "Very well;--give me the cordial;--don't let me go
to sleep--I don't want to be cheated out of a minute. So, so--! I am
better. You may withdraw, doctor. Let my spaniel come up. Bustle,
Bustle!--poor fellow! poor fellow! Lie down, sir! be quiet! And now,
Godolphin, a few words in farewell. I always liked you greatly; you know
you were my protege, and you have turned out well. You have not been led
away by the vulgar passions of politics, and place, and power. You have
had power over power itself; you have not office, but you have fashion.
You have made the greatest match in England; very prudently not marrying
Constance Vernon, very prudently marrying Lady Erpingham. You are at the
head and front of society; you have excellent taste, and spend your wealth
properly. All this must make your conscience clear--a wonderful
consolation! Always keep a sound conscience; it is a great blessing on
one's death-bed--it is a great blessing tome in this hour, for I have
played my part decently--eh?--I have enjoyed life, as much as so dull a
possession can be enjoyed; I have loved, gamed, drunk, but I have never
lost my character as a gentleman: thank Heaven, I have no remorse of that
sort! Follow my example to the last and you will die as easily. I have
left you my correspondence and my journal; you may publish them if you
like; if not, burn them. They are full of amusing anecdotes; but I don't
care for fame, as you well know--especially posthumous fame. Do as you
please then, with my literary remains. Take care of my dog--'tis a good
creature; and let me be quietly buried. No bad taste--no ostentation--no
epitaph. I am very glad I die before the d--d Revolution that must come;
I don't want to take wine with the Member for Holborn Bars. I am a type
of a system; I expire before the system; my death is the herald of its
fall."
With these expressions--not continuously uttered, but at short
intervals--Saville turned away his face: his breathing became thick: he
fell into the slumber he had deprecated; and, after about an hour's
silence, died away as insensibly as an infant. Sic transit glories mundi!
The first living countenance beside the death-bed on which Godolphin's eye
fell was that of Fanny Millinger; she (who had been much with Saville
during his latter days, for her talk amused him, and her good-nature made
her willing to amuse any one) had been, at his request, summoned also with
Godolphin at the sudden turn of his disease. She was at the theatre at
the time, and had only just arrived when the deceased had fallen into his
last sleep. There, silent and shocked, she stood by the bed, opposite
Godolphin. She had not stayed to change her stage-dress; and the tinsel
and mock jewels glittered on the revolted eye of her quondam lover. What
a type of the life just extinguished! What a satire on its mountebank
artificialities!
Some little time after, she joined Godolphin in the desolate apartment
below. She put her hand in his, and her tears--for she wept
easily--flowed fast down her cheeks, washing away the lavish rouge which
imperfectly masked the wrinkles that Time had lately begun to sow on a
surface Godolphin had remembered so fair and smooth.
"Poor Saville!" said she, falteringly; "he died without a pang. Ah! he
had the best temper possible."
Godolphin sat by the writing-table of the deceased, shading his brow with
the hand which the actress left disengaged.
"Fanny," said he, bitterly, after a pause, "the world is indeed a stage.
It has lost a consummate actor, though in a small part."
The saying was wrung from Godolphin--and was not said unkindly, though it
seemed so--for he too had tears in his eyes.
"Ah," said she, the play-house has indeed taught us, in our youth, many
things which the real world could not teach us better."
"Life differs from the play only in this," said Godolphin, some time
afterwards; "it has no plot--all is vague, desultory, unconnected--till
the curtain drops with the mystery unsolved."
Those were the last words that Godolphin ever addressed to the actress.
