CHAPTER LXVI.
THE JOURNEY AND THE SURPRISE.--A WALK IN THE SUMMER NIGHT.--THE STARS AND
THE ASSOCIATION THAT MEMORY MAKES WITH NATURE.
This event detained Godolphin some days longer in town. He saw the last
rites performed to Saville, and he was present at the opening of the will.
As in life Saville had never lent a helping hand to the distressed, as he
had mixed with the wealthy only, so now to the wealthy only was his wealth
devoted. The rich Godolphin was his principal heir; not a word was even
said about his illegitimate children, not an inquiry ordained towards his
poor relations. In this, as in all the formula of his will, Saville
followed the prescribed customs of the world.
Fast went the panting steeds that bore Constance and Godolphin from the
desolate city. Bright was the summer sky, and green looked the smiling
fields that lay on either side their road. Nature was awake and active.
What a delicious contrast to the scenes of Art which they left behind!
Constance exerted herself to the utmost to cheer the spirits of her
companion, and succeeded. In the small compass which confined them
together, their conversation flowed in confidence and intimate affection.
Not since the first month of their union had they talked with less reserve
and more entire love--only there was this difference in their topics they
then talked of the future only, they now talked more of the past. They
uttered many a fond regret over their several faults to each other; and,
with clasped hands, congratulated themselves on their present reunion of
heart. They allowed how much all things independent of affection had
deceived them, and no longer exacting so much from love, they felt its
real importance. Ah, why do all of us lose so many years in searching
after happiness, but never inquiring into its nature! We are like one who
collects the books of a thousand tongues, and knowing not their language,
wonders why they do not delight him?
But still, athwart the mind of Constance one dark image would ever and
anon obtrude itself; the solitary and mystic Lucilla, with her erring
brain and forlorn fortunes, was not even in happiness to be forgotten.
There were times, too, in that short journey, when she felt the tale of
her interview with that unhappy being rise to her lips: but ever when she
looked on the countenance of Godolphin, beaming with more heartfelt and
homeborn gladness than she had seen for years, she could not bear the
thought of seeing it darkened by the pain her story would inflict; and she
shrank from embittering moments so precious to her heart.
All her endeavours to discover Lucilla had been in vain: but an unquiet
presentiment that at any moment that discovery might be made, perhaps in
the presence of Godolphin, constantly haunted her, and she even now looked
painfully forth at each inn where they changed horses, lest the sad, stern
features of the soothsayer should appear, and break that spell of happy
quiet which now lay over the spirit of Godolphin.
It was towards the evening that their carriage slowly wound up a steep and
long ascent. The sun yet wanted an hour to its setting; and at their
right, its slant and mellowed beams fell over rich fields, green with the
prodigal luxuriance of June, and intersected by hedges from which, proud
and frequent, the oak and elm threw forth their lengthened shadows. On
their left the grass less fertile, and the spaces less inclosed, were
whitened with flocks of sheep; and far and soft came the bleating of the
lambs upon their ear. They saw not the shepherd nor any living form; but
from between the thicker groups of trees the chimneys of peaceful cottages
peered forth, and gave to the pastoral serenity of the scene that still
and tranquil aspect of life which alone suited it. The busy wheel in the
heart of Constance was at rest, and Godolphin's soul, steeped in the
luxury of the present hour, felt that delicious happiness which would be
heaven could it outlive the hour.
"My Constance," whispered he, "why, since we return at last to these
scenes, why should we ever leave them? Amidst them let us recall our
youth!" Constance sighed, but with pleasure, and pressed Godolphin's hand
to her lips.
And now they had gained the hill, a sudden colour flushed over Godolphin's
cheek.
"Surely," said he, "I remember this view. Yonder valley! This is not the
road to Wendover Castle; this--my father's home!--the same, and not the
same!"
Yes! Below, basking in the western light, lay the cottage in which
Godolphin's childhood had been passed. There was the stream rippling
merrily; there the broken and fern-clad turf, with "its old hereditary
trees;" but the ruins!--the shattered arch, the mouldering tower, were
left indeed--but new arches, new turrets had arisen, and so dexterously
blended with the whole that Godolphin might have fancied the hall of his
forefathers restored--not indeed in the same vast proportions and cumbrous
grandeur as of old, but still alike in shape and outline, and such even in
size as would have contented the proud heart of its last owner.
Godolphin's eyes turned inquiringly to Constance.
"It should have been more consistent with its ancient dimensions," said
she; "but then it would have taken half our lives to have built it."
"But this must have been the work of years."
"It was."
"And your work, Constance?"
"For you."
"And it was for this that you hesitated when I asked you to consent to
raising the money for the purchase of Lord ----'s collection?"
"Yes;--am I forgiven?"
"Dearest Constance," said Godolphin, flinging his arms around her, "how
have I wronged you! During those very years, then, of our
estrangement--during those very years in which I thought you indifferent,
you were silently preparing this noble revenge on the injury I did you.
Why, why did I not know this before? Why did you not save us both from so
long a misunderstanding of each other?"
"Dearest Percy, I was to blame; but I always looked to this hour as to a
pleasure of which I could not bear to rob myself. I always fancied that
when this task was finished, and you could witness it, you would feel how
uppermost you always were in my thoughts, and forgive me many faults from
that consideration. I knew that I was executing your father's great wish;
I knew that you always, although unconsciously, perhaps, sympathised in
that wish. I only grieve that, as yet, it has been executed so
imperfectly."
"But how," continued Godolphin, gazing on the new pile as they now neared
the entrance, "how was it this never reached my ears through other
quarters?"
"But it did, Percy; don't you remember our country neighbour, Dartmour,
complimenting you on your intended improvements, and you fancied it was
irony, and turned your back on the discomfited squire?"
They now drove under the gates surmounted with Godolphin's arms; and in a
few minutes more, they were within the renovated halls of the Priory.
Perhaps it was impossible for Constance to have more sensibly touched and
flattered Godolphin than by this surprise; it affected him far more than
the political concession which to her had been so profound a sacrifice;
for his early poverty had produced in him somewhat of that ancestral pride
which the poor only can gracefully wear; and although the tie between his
father and himself had not possessed much endearment, yet he had often,
with the generosity that belonged to him, regretted that his parent had
not survived to share in his present wealth, and to devote some portion of
it to the realisation of those wishes which he had never been permitted to
consummate. Godolphin, too, was precisely of a nature to appreciate the
delicacy of Constance's conduct, and to be deeply penetrated by the
thought that, while he was following a career so separate from hers, she,
in the midst of all her ambitious projects, could pause to labour,
unthanked and in concealment, for the delight of this hour's gratification
to him: the delicacy and the forethought affected him the more, because
they made not a part of the ordinary character of the high and absorbed
ambition of Constance. He did not thank her much by words, but his looks
betrayed all he felt, and Constance was overpaid.
Although the new portion of the building was necessarily not extensive,
yet each chamber was of those grand proportions which suited the
magnificent taste of Godolphin, and harmonised with the ancient ruins.
Constance had shown her tact by leaving the ruins themselves (which it was
profane to touch) unrestored; but so artfully were those connected with
the modern addition, and thence with the apartments in the cottage, which
she had not scrupled to remodel, that an effect was produced from the
whole far more splendid than many Gothic buildings of greater extent and
higher pretensions can afford. Godolphin wandered delightedly over the
whole, charmed with the taste and judgment which presided over even the
nicest arrangement.
"Why, where," said he, struck with the accurate antiquity of some of the
details, "where learned you all these minutiae? You are as wise as Hope
himself upon cornices and tables."
"I was forced to leave these things to others," answered Constance; "but I
took care that they possessed the necessary science."
The night was exceedingly beautiful, and they walked forth under the
summer moon among those grounds in which Constance had first seen
Godolphin. They stood by the very rivulet--they paused at the very spot!
On the murmuring bosom of the wave floated many a water-flower; and now
and then a sudden splash, a sudden circle in the shallow stream, denoted
the leap of the river-tyrant on his prey. There was a universal odor in
the soft air; that delicate, that ineffable fragrance belonging to those
midsummer nights which the rich English poetry might well people with
Oberon and his fairies; the bat wheeled in many a ring along the air; but
the gentle light bathed all things, and robbed his wanderings of the
gloomier associations that belong to them; and ever, and ever, the busy
moth darted to and fro among the flowers, or misled upwards by the stars
whose beam allured it, wandered, like Desire after Happiness, in search of
that light it might never reach. And those stars still, with their soft,
unspeakable eyes of love, looked down upon Godolphin as of old, when, by
the Italian lake, he roved with her for whom he had become the world
itself. No, not now, nor ever, could he gaze upon those wan, mysterious
orbs, and not feel the pang that reminded him of Lucilla! Between them
and her was an affinity which his imagination could not sever. All whom
we have loved have something in nature especially devoted to their memory;
a peculiar flower, a breath of air, a leaf, a tone. What love is without
some such association.
"Striking the electric chain wherewith we're bound"?
But the dim, and shadowy, and solemn stars were indeed meet remembrancers
of Volktman's wild daughter; and so intimately was their light connected
in Godolphin's breast with that one image, that their very softness had,
to his eyes, something fearful and menacing--although as in sadness, not
in anger.
