CHAPTER XXXV.
Now comes the apparition of another little friend who stood very high
in my childish favor. As nearly as I can remember I became acquainted
with her when I was eleven; Antoinette had left the country; Veronica
was forgotten.
Her name was Jeanne, and she was the youngest member of a naval
officer's family, that like the D-----s had been bound up in
friendship with ours for more than a century. As she was two or three
years younger than I, I had at first taken but little notice of her--
probably I thought her too babyish.
Her face was as droll as a little kitten's, and it was impossible to
tell from the pinched up features whether she would become pretty or
ugly; but she had a certain grace, and when she was eight or nine
years old her face became very sweet and charming. She was very
roguish, and as friendly as I was diffident; and as she darted about
in those childish dances we sometimes had in the evenings, and from
which I held myself aloof, she seemed to me the extreme of worldly
elegance and coquetry.
But in spite of the great intimacy between our families, it was
evident that her parents looked upon our friendship with disfavor,
they probably thought it unseemly that she had chosen a boy for her
companion. This knowledge caused me much suffering, and the
impressions of my childhood were so vivid and persistent that I did
not, until many years had passed, until I became quite a grown youth,
pardon her father and mother the humiliation they had caused me.
It therefore resulted that my desire to play with her increased
greatly. And she, knowing this, was as perverse as a princess in a
fairy tale; she laughed mercilessly at my timid ways, at my awkward
manners and my ungraceful fashion of entering the parlor; there was
kept up between us a constant interchange of playful raillery, an oral
stream of inimitable pleasantry.
When I was invited to spend the day with her the prospect gave me the
greatest joy, but the aftertaste of the visit was generally bitter,
for usually I committed some mortifying blunder in that family where I
felt myself so misunderstood. Every time I wished to have Jeanne at my
house for dinner it was necessary for my aunt Bertha, who was a person
of authority in the eyes of Jeanne's parents, to arrange the matter
for me.
Upon one occasion when little Jeanne returned from Paris she related
to me the story of the "Donkey's Skin," which she had seen acted at
the theatre in the city.
Her time so spent was not lost, for the "Donkey's Skin" was destined
to occupy a prominent place in my life during the next four or five
years, the hours that I wasted upon it were more preciously squandered
than were any others in my life.
Together we conceived the idea of mounting the piece upon the stage of
my miniature theatre. That play of the "Donkey's Skin" brought us
together very often. And little by little the project assumed gigantic
proportions; it grew as the months sped, and amused us in ever
increasing measure; indeed, in proportion to the degree of perfection
to which we were able to bring our conception did we enjoy it. We
manufactured fantastic decorations; we dressed, so that they might
take part in the processions, innumerable little dolls. It will be
necessary for me to speak often of that fairy spectacle which was one
of the important things of my childhood.
And even after Jeanne tired of it I worked over it alone, and I fairly
outdid myself by undertaking enterprises that seemed grand to me,
such, for instance, as my efforts to represent moonlight, great
conflagrations and storms. I also made marvellous palaces and gardens
wonderful as Aladdin's. All my dreams of enchanted regions, of strange
tropical luxuries, which I later found in the distant corners of the
world, took form in the little play of the "Donkey's Skin." Leaving
out the mystical experiences at the commencement of my life, I can
affirm that almost all my fancies had their essay on that tiny stage.
I was nearly fifteen when the last decorations, unfinished ones, were
laid away forever in the cardboard box that served them for a peaceful
tomb.
And since I have anticipated their future I will say in conclusion
that in later years, when Jeanne had grown into a beautiful woman,
upon numerous occasions we have planned to open the box where our
little dolls are sleeping. But we live our life so rapidly that we
seem never to find the time, nor will we, I fear, ever find it.
Later our children may,--or who can tell, perhaps our grandchildren!
Upon some future day, when we are forgotten, our unknown descendants
in ferreting to the bottom of old cupboards will be astonished to find
there numberless little creatures, nymphs, fairies and genii, all
dressed by our hands.
