V
SHEPSON took up his hat with a despairing gesture.
"Vell, I gif you up--I gif you up!" he said.
"Don't--yet," protested Stanwell from the divan.
It was winter again, and though the janitor had not forgotten the
fire, the studio gave no other evidence of its master's increasing
prosperity. If Stanwell spent his money it was not upon himself.
He leaned back against the wall, his hands in his pockets, a
cigarette between his lips, while Shepson paced the dirty floor or
halted impatiently before an untouched canvas on the easel.
"I tell you vat it is, Mr. Sdanwell, I can't make you out!" he
lamented. "Last vinter you got a sdart that vould have kept most men
going for years. After making dat hit vith Mrs. Millington's picture
you could have bainted half the town. And here you are sitting on
your divan and saying you can't make up your mind to take another
order. Vell, I can only say that if you take much longer to make it
up, you'll find some other chap has cut in and got your job. Mrs.
Van Orley has been waiting since last August, and she dells me you
haven't even answered her letter."
"How could I? I didn't know if I wanted to paint her."
"My goodness! Don't you know if you vant three thousand tollars?"
Stanwell surveyed his cigarette. "No, I'm not sure I do," he said.
Shepson flung out his hands. "Ask more den--but do it quick!" he
exclaimed.
Left to himself, Stanwell stood in silent contemplation of the
canvas on which the dealer had riveted his reproachful gaze. It had
been destined to reflect the opulent image of Mrs. Alpheus Van
Orley, but some secret reluctance of Stanwell's had stayed the
execution of the task. He had painted two of Mrs. Millington's
friends in the spring, had been much praised and liberally paid for
his work, and then, declining several recent orders to be executed
at Newport, had surprised his friends by remaining quietly in town.
It was not till August that he hired a little cottage on the New
Jersey coast and invited the Arrans to visit him. They accepted the
invitation, and the three had spent together six weeks of seashore
idleness, during which Stanwell's modest rafters shook with Caspar's
denunciations of his host's venality, and the brightness of Kate's
gratitude was tempered by a tinge of reproach. But her grief over
Stanwell's apostasy could not efface the fact that he had offered
her brother the means of escape from town, and Stanwell himself was
consoled by the reflection that but for Mrs. Millington's portrait
he could not have performed even this trifling service for his
friends.
When the Arrans left him in September he went to pay a few visits in
the country, and on his return, a month later, to the studio
building he found that things had not gone well with Caspar. The
little sculptor had caught cold, and the labour and expense of
converting his gigantic off- spring into marble seemed to hang
heavily upon him. He and Kate were living in a damp company of
amorphous clay monsters, unfinished witnesses to the creative frenzy
which had seized him after the sale of his group; and the doctor had
urged that his patient should be removed to warmer and drier
lodgings. But to uproot Caspar was impossible, and his sister could
only feed the stove, and swaddle him in mufflers and felt slippers.
Stanwell found that during his absence Mungold had reappeared, fresh
and rosy from a summer in Europe, and as prodigal as ever of the
only form of attention which Kate could be counted on not to resent.
The game and champagne reappeared with him, and he seemed as ready
as Stanwell to lend a patient ear to Caspar's homilies. But Stanwell
could see that, even now, Kate had not forgiven him for the Cupids.
Stanwell himself had spent the early winter months in idleness. The
sight of his tools filled him with a strange repugnance, and he
absented himself as much as possible from the studio. But Shepson's
visit roused him to the fact that he must decide on some definite
course of action. If he wished to follow up his success of the
previous spring he must refuse no more orders: he must not let Mrs.
Van Orley slip away from him. He knew there were competitors enough
ready to profit by his hesitations, and since his success was the
result of a whim, a whim might undo it. With a sudden gesture of
decision he caught up his hat and left the studio.
On the landing he met Kate Arran. She too was going out, drawn forth
by the sudden radiance of the January afternoon. She met him with a
smile which seemed the answer to his uncertainties, and he asked
abruptly if she had time to take a walk with him.
Yes; for once she had time, for Mr. Mungold was sitting with Caspar,
and had promised to remain till she came in. It mattered little to
Stanwell that Mungold was with Caspar as long as he himself was with
Kate; and he instantly soared to the suggestion that they should
prolong the painter's vigil by taking the "elevated" to the Park. In
this too his companion acquiesced after a moment of surprise: she
seemed in a consenting mood, and Stanwell augured well from the
fact.
The Park was clothed in the double glitter of snow and sunshine.
They roamed the hard white alleys to a continuous tinkle of
sleigh-bells, and Kate brightened with the exhilaration of the
scene. It was not often that she permitted herself such an escape
from routine, and in this new environment, which seemed to detach
her from her daily setting, Stanwell had his first complete vision
of her. To the girl also their unwonted isolation seemed to create a
sense of fuller communion, for she began presently, as they reached
the leafless solitude of the Ramble, to speak with sudden freedom of
her brother. It appeared that the orders against which Caspar had so
heroically steeled himself were slow in coming: he had received no
commission since the sale of his group, and he was beginning to
suffer from a reaction of discouragement. Oh, it was not the craving
for popularity--Stanwell knew how far above that he stood. But it
had been exquisite, yes, exquisite to him to find himself believed
in, understood. He had fancied that the purchase of the group was
the dawn of a tardy recognition--and now the darkness of
indifference had set in again, no one spoke of him, no one wrote of
him, no one cared.
"If he were in good health it would not matter--he would throw off
such weakness, he would live only for the joy of his work; but he is
losing ground, his strength is failing, and he is so afraid there
will not be time enough left--time enough for full recognition," she
explained.
The quiver in her voice silenced Stanwell: he was afraid of echoing
it with his own. At length he said: "Oh, more orders will come.
Success is a gradual growth."
"Yes, _real_ success," she said, with a solemn note in which he
caught--and forgave--a reflection on his own facile triumphs.
"But when the orders do come," she continued, "will he have strength
to carry them out? Last winter the doctor thought he only needed
work to set him up; now he talks of rest instead! He says we ought
to go to a warm climate--but how can Caspar leave the group?"
"Oh, hang the group--let him chuck the order!" cried Stanwell.
She looked at him tragically. "The money is spent," she said.
He coloured to the roots of his hair. "But ill-health--ill-health
excuses everything. If he goes away now he will come back good for
twice the amount of work in the spring. A sculptor is not expected
to deliver a statue on a given day, like a package of groceries! You
must do as the doctor says--you must make him chuck everything and
go."
They had reached a windless nook above the lake, and, pausing in the
stress of their talk, she let herself sink on a bench beside the
path. The movement encouraged him, and he seated himself at her
side.
"You must take him away at once," he repeated urgently. "He must be
made comfortable--you must both be free from worry. And I want you
to let me manage it for you--"
He broke off, silenced by her rising blush, her protesting murmur.
"Oh, stop, please; let me explain. I'm not talking of lending you
money; I'm talking of giving you--myself. The offer may be just as
unacceptable, but it's of a kind to which it's customary to accord
it a hearing. I should have made it a year ago--the first day I saw
you, I believe!--but that, then, it wasn't in my power to make
things easier for you. But now, you know, I've had a little luck.
Since I painted Mrs. Millington things have changed. I believe I can
get as many orders as I choose--there are two or three people
waiting now. What's the use of it all, if it doesn't bring me a
little happiness? And the only happiness I know is the kind that you
can give me."
He paused, suddenly losing the courage to look at her, so that her
pained murmur was framed for him in a glittering vision of the
frozen lake. He turned with a start and met the refusal in her eyes.
"No--really no?" he repeated.
She shook her head silently.
"I could have helped you--I could have helped you!" he sighed.
She flushed distressfully, but kept her eyes on his.
"It's just that--don't you see?" she reproached him.
"Just that--the fact that I could be of use to you?"
"The fact that, as you say, things have changed since you painted
Mrs. Millington. I haven't seen the later portraits, but they tell
me--"
"Oh, they're just as bad!" Stanwell jeered.
"You've sold your talent, and you know it: that's the dreadful part.
You did it deliberately," she cried with passion.
"Oh, deliberately," he interjected.
"And you're not ashamed--you talk of going on."
"I'm not ashamed; I talk of going on."
She received this with a long shuddering sigh, and turned her eyes
away from him.
"Oh, why--why--why?" she lamented.
It was on the tip of Stanwell's tongue to answer, "That I might say
to you what I am just saying now--" but he replied instead: "A man
may paint bad pictures and be a decent fellow. Look at Mungold,
after all!"
The adjuration had an unexpected effect. Kate's colour faded
suddenly, and she sat motionless, with a stricken face.
"There's a difference--" she began at length abruptly; "the
difference you've always insisted on. Mr. Mungold paints as well as
he can. He has no idea that his pictures are--less good than they
might be."
"Well--?"
"So he can't be accused of doing what he does for money--of
sacrificing anything better." She turned on him with troubled eyes.
"It was you who made me understand that, when Caspar used to make
fun of him."
Stanwell smiled. "I'm glad you still think me a better painter than
Mungold. But isn't it hard that for that very reason I should starve
in a hole? If I painted badly enough you'd see no objection to my
living at the Waldorf!"
"Ah, don't joke about it," she murmured. "Don't triumph in it."
"I see no reason to at present," said Stanwell drily. "But I won't
pretend to be ashamed when I'm not. I think there are occasions when
a man is justified in doing what I've done."
She looked at him solemnly. "What occasions?"
"Why, when he wants money, hang it!"
She drew a deep breath. "Money--money? Has Caspar's example been
nothing to you, then?"
"It hasn't proved to me that I must starve while Mungold lives on
truffles!"
Again her face changed and she stirred uneasily, and then rose to
her feet.
"There is no occasion which can justify an artist's sacrificing his
convictions!" she exclaimed.
Stanwell rose too, facing her with a mounting urgency which sent a
flush to his cheek.
"Can't you conceive such an occasion in my case? The wish, I mean,
to make things easier for Caspar--to help you in any way you might
let me?"
Her face reflected his blush, and she stood gazing at him with a
wounded wonder.
"Caspar and I--you imagine we could live on money earned in _that_
way?"
Stanwell made an impatient gesture. "You've got to live on
something--or he has, even if you don't include yourself!"
Her blush deepened miserably, but she held her head high.
"That's just it--that's what I came here to say to you." She stood a
moment gazing away from him at the lake.
He looked at her in surprise. "You came here to say something to
me?"
"Yes. That we've got to live on something, Caspar and I, as you say;
and since an artist cannot sacrifice his convictions, the sacrifice
must--I mean--I wanted you to know that I have promised to marry Mr.
Mungold."
"Mungold!" Stanwell cried with a sharp note of irony; but her white
look checked it on his lips.
"I know all you are going to say," she murmured, with a kind of
nobleness which moved him even through his sense of its
grotesqueness. "But you must see the distinction, because you first
made it clear to me. I can take money earned in good faith--I can
let Caspar live on it. I can marry Mr. Mungold; because, though his
pictures are bad, he does not prostitute his art."
She began to move away from him slowly, and he followed her in
silence along the frozen path.
When Stanwell re-entered his studio the dusk had fallen. He lit his
lamp and rummaged out some writing-materials. Having found them, he
wrote to Shepson to say that he could not paint Mrs. Van Orley, and
did not care to accept any more orders for the present. He sealed
and stamped the letter and flung it over the banisters for the
janitor to post; then he dragged out his unfinished head of Kate
Arran, replaced it on the easel, and sat down before it with a grim
smile.
