CHAPTER V
SHARING THE DREAD
The tenth of September came. How swiftly the days flew by!
One morning, a true autumn morning, with cold mist falling over the
earth, in the rising sun, she sat under the porch of the chapel of the
shipwrecked mariners, where the widows go to pray, with eyes fixed and
glassy, throbbing temples tightened as by an iron hand.
These sad morning mists had begun two days before, and on this
particular day Gaud had awakened with a still more bitter uneasiness,
caused by the forecast of advancing winter. Why did this day, this
hour, this very moment, seem to her more painful than the preceding?
Often ships are delayed a fortnight, even a month, for that matter.
But surely there was something different about this particular
morning, for she had come to-day for the first time to sit in the
porch of this chapel and read the names of the dead sailors, perished
in their prime.
"In memory of
GAOS, YVON,
Lost at sea
Near the Norden-Fjord."
Like a great shudder, a gust of wind rose from the sea, and at the
same time something fell like rain upon the roof above. It was only
the dead leaves though; many were blown in at the porch; the old wind-
tossed trees of the graveyard were losing their foliage in this rising
gale, and winter was marching nearer.
"Lost at sea,
Near the Norden-Fjord,
In the storm of the 4th and 5th of August, 1880."
She read mechanically under the arch of the doorway; her eyes sought
to pierce the distance over the sea. That morning it was untraceable
under the gray mist, and a dragging drapery of clouds overhung the
horizon like a mourning veil.
Another gust of wind, and other leaves danced in in whirls. A stronger
gust still, as if the western storm that had strewn those dead over
the sea, wished to deface the very inscriptions that remembered their
names to the living.
Gaud looked with involuntary persistency at an empty space upon the
wall that seemed to yawn expectant. By a terrible impression she was
pursued, the thought of a fresh slab which might soon, perhaps, be
placed there, with another name which she did not even dare to think
of in such a spot.
She felt cold, and remained seated on the granite bench, her head
reclining against the stone wall.
* * * * * * * * * * *
. . . . . . . "near the Norden-Fjord,
In the storm of the 4th and 5th of August,
At the age of 23 years,
/Requiescat in pace/!"
Then Iceland loomed up before her, with its little cemetery lighted up
from below the sea-line by the midnight sun. Suddenly in the same
empty space on the wall, with horrifying clearness she saw the fresh
slab she was thinking of; a clear white one, with a skull and cross-
bones, and in a flash of foresight, a name--the worshipped name of
"Yann Gaos!" Then she suddenly and fearfully drew herself up straight
and stiff, with a hoarse, wild cry in her throat like a mad creature.
Outside the gray mist of the dawn fell over the land, and the dead
leaves were again blown dancingly into the porch.
Steps on the footpath? Somebody was coming? She rose and quickly
smoothed down her cap and composed her face. Nearer drew the steps.
She assumed the air of one who might be there by chance; for, above
all, she did not wish to appear yet, like the widow of a shipwrecked
mariner.
It happened to be Fante Floury, the wife of the second mate of the
/Leopoldine/. She understood immediately what Gaud was doing there; it
was useless to dissemble with her. At first each woman stood
speechless before the other. They were angry and almost hated each
other for having met with a like sentiment of apprehension.
"All the men of Treguier and Saint Brieuc have been back this week,"
said Fante at last, in a pitiless, muffled, half-irritated voice.
She carried a blessed taper in her hand, to offer up a prayer. Gaud
did not wish yet to resort to that extreme resource of despairing
wives. Yet silently she entered the chapel behind Fante, and they
knelt down together side by side, like two sisters.
To the "Star of the Sea" they offered ardent imploring prayers, with
their whole soul in them. A sound of sobbing was alone heard, as their
rapid tears swiftly fell upon the floor. They rose together, more
confident and softened. Fante held up Gaud, who staggered, and taking
her in her arms, kissed her.
Wiping their eyes, and smoothing their dishevelled hair, they brushed
off the salt dust from the flagstones, soiling their gowns, and they
went away in opposite directions, without another word.
