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An Outcast of the Islands by Conrad, Joseph - Chapter 8

PART II





CHAPTER ONE





The light and heat fell upon the settlement, the clearings, and

the river as if flung down by an angry hand. The land lay

silent, still, and brilliant under the avalanche of burning rays

that had destroyed all sound and all motion, had buried all

shadows, had choked every breath. No living thing dared to

affront the serenity of this cloudless sky, dared to revolt

against the oppression of this glorious and cruel sunshine.

Strength and resolution, body and mind alike were helpless, and

tried to hide before the rush of the fire from heaven. Only the

frail butterflies, the fearless children of the sun, the

capricious tyrants of the flowers, fluttered audaciously in the

open, and their minute shadows hovered in swarms over the

drooping blossoms, ran lightly on the withering grass, or glided

on the dry and cracked earth. No voice was heard in this hot

noontide but the faint murmur of the river that hurried on in

swirls and eddies, its sparkling wavelets chasing each other in

their joyous course to the sheltering depths, to the cool refuge

of the sea.



Almayer had dismissed his workmen for the midday rest, and, his

little daughter on his shoulder, ran quickly across the

courtyard, making for the shade of the verandah of his house. He

laid the sleepy child on the seat of the big rocking-chair, on a

pillow which he took out of his own hammock, and stood for a

while looking down at her with tender and pensive eyes. The

child, tired and hot, moved uneasily, sighed, and looked up at

him with the veiled look of sleepy fatigue. He picked up from

the floor a broken palm-leaf fan, and began fanning gently the

flushed little face. Her eyelids fluttered and Almayer smiled.

A responsive smile brightened for a second her heavy eyes, broke

with a dimple the soft outline of her cheek; then the eyelids

dropped suddenly, she drew a long breath through the parted

lips--and was in a deep sleep before the fleeting smile could

vanish from her face.



Almayer moved lightly off, took one of the wooden armchairs, and

placing it close to the balustrade of the verandah sat down with

a sigh of relief. He spread his elbows on the top rail and

resting his chin on his clasped hands looked absently at the

river, at the dance of sunlight on the flowing water. Gradually

the forest of the further bank became smaller, as if sinking

below the level of the river. The outlines wavered, grew thin,

dissolved in the air. Before his eyes there was now only a space

of undulating blue--one big, empty sky growing dark at times. . .

. Where was the sunshine? . . . He felt soothed and happy, as

if some gentle and invisible hand had removed from his soul the

burden of his body. In another second he seemed to float out

into a cool brightness where there was no such thing as memory or

pain. Delicious. His eyes closed--opened--closed again.



"Almayer!"



With a sudden jerk of his whole body he sat up, grasping the

front rail with both his hands, and blinked stupidly.



"What? What's that?" he muttered, looking round vaguely.



"Here! Down here, Almayer."



Half rising in his chair, Almayer looked over the rail at the

foot of the verandah, and fell back with a low whistle of

astonishment.



"A ghost, by heavens!" he exclaimed softly to himself.



"Will you listen to me?" went on the husky voice from the

courtyard. "May I come up, Almayer?"



Almayer stood up and leaned over the rail. "Don't you dare," he

said, in a voice subdued but distinct. "Don't you dare! The

child sleeps here. And I don't want to hear you--or speak to you

either."



"You must listen to me! It's something important."



"Not to me, surely."



"Yes! To you. Very important."



"You were always a humbug," said Almayer, after a short silence,

in an indulgent tone. "Always! I remember the old days. Some

fellows used to say there was no one like you for smartness--but

you never took me in. Not quite. I never quite believed in you,

Mr. Willems."



"I admit your superior intelligence," retorted Willems, with

scornful impatience, from below. "Listening to me would be a

further proof of it. You will be sorry if you don't."



"Oh, you funny fellow!" said Almayer, banteringly. "Well, come

up. Don't make a noise, but come up. You'll catch a sunstroke

down there and die on my doorstep perhaps. I don't want any

tragedy here. Come on!"



Before he finished speaking Willems' head appeared above the

level of the floor, then his shoulders rose gradually and he

stood at last before Almayer--a masquerading spectre of the once

so very confidential clerk of the richest merchant in the

islands. His jacket was soiled and torn; below the waist he was

clothed in a worn-out and faded sarong. He flung off his hat,

uncovering his long, tangled hair that stuck in wisps on his

perspiring forehead and straggled over his eyes, which glittered

deep down in the sockets like the last sparks amongst the black

embers of a burnt-out fire. An unclean beard grew out of the

caverns of his sunburnt cheeks. The hand he put out towards

Almayer was very unsteady. The once firm mouth had the tell-tale

droop of mental suffering and physical exhaustion. He was

barefooted. Almayer surveyed him with leisurely composure.



"Well!" he said at last, without taking the extended hand which

dropped slowly along Willems' body.



"I am come," began Willems.



"So I see," interrupted Almayer. "You might have spared me this

treat without making me unhappy. You have been away five weeks,

if I am not mistaken. I got on very well without you--and now you

are here you are not pretty to look at."



"Let me speak, will you!" exclaimed Willems.



"Don't shout like this. Do you think yourself in the forest with

your . . . your friends? This is a civilized man's house. A

white man's. Understand?"



"I am come," began Willems again; "I am come for your good and

mine."



"You look as if you had come for a good feed," chimed in the

irrepressible Almayer, while Willems waved his hand in a

discouraged gesture. "Don't they give you enough to eat," went

on Almayer, in a tone of easy banter, "those--what am I to call

them--those new relations of yours? That old blind scoundrel

must be delighted with your company. You know, he was the

greatest thief and murderer of those seas. Say! do you exchange

confidences? Tell me, Willems, did you kill somebody in Macassar

or did you only steal something?"



"It is not true!" exclaimed Willems, hotly. "I only borrowed. .

. . They all lied! I . . ."



"Sh-sh!" hissed Almayer, warningly, with a look at the sleeping

child. "So you did steal," he went on, with repressed

exultation. "I thought there was something of the kind. And

now, here, you steal again."



For the first time Willems raised his eyes to Almayer's face.



"Oh, I don't mean from me. I haven't missed anything," said

Almayer, with mocking haste. "But that girl. Hey! You stole

her. You did not pay the old fellow. She is no good to him now,

is she?"



"Stop that. Almayer!"



Something in Willems' tone caused Almayer to pause. He looked

narrowly at the man before him, and could not help being shocked

at his appearance.



"Almayer," went on Willems, "listen to me. If you are a human

being you will. I suffer horribly--and for your sake."



Almayer lifted his eyebrows. "Indeed! How? But you are

raving," he added, negligently.



"Ah! You don't know," whispered Willems. "She is gone. Gone,"

he repeated, with tears in his voice, "gone two days ago."



"No!" exclaimed the surprised Almayer. "Gone! I haven't heard

that news yet." He burst into a subdued laugh. "How funny! Had

enough of you already? You know it's not flattering for you, my

superior countryman."



Willems--as if not hearing him--leaned against one of the columns

of the roof and looked over the river. "At first," he whispered,

dreamily, "my life was like a vision of heaven--or hell; I didn't

know which. Since she went I know what perdition means; what

darkness is. I know what it is to be torn to pieces alive.

That's how I feel."



"You may come and live with me again," said Almayer, coldly.

"After all, Lingard--whom I call my father and respect as

such--left you under my care. You pleased yourself by going

away. Very good. Now you want to come back. Be it so. I am no

friend of yours. I act for Captain Lingard."



"Come back?" repeated Willems, passionately. "Come back to you

and abandon her? Do you think I am mad? Without her! Man! what

are you made of? To think that she moves, lives, breathes out of

my sight. I am jealous of the wind that fans her, of the air she

breathes, of the earth that receives the caress of her foot, of

the sun that looks at her now while I . . . I haven't seen her

for two days--two days."



The intensity of Willems' feeling moved Almayer somewhat, but he

affected to yawn elaborately



"You do bore me," he muttered. "Why don't you go after her

instead of coming here?"



"Why indeed?"



"Don't you know where she is? She can't be very far. No native

craft has left this river for the last fortnight."



"No! not very far--and I will tell you where she is. She is in

Lakamba's campong." And Willems fixed his eyes steadily on

Almayer's face.



"Phew! Patalolo never sent to let me know. Strange," said

Almayer, thoughtfully. "Are you afraid of that lot?" he added,

after a short pause.



"I--afraid!"



"Then is it the care of your dignity which prevents you from

following her there, my high-minded friend?" asked Almayer, with

mock solicitude. "How noble of you!"



There was a short silence; then Willems said, quietly, "You are a

fool. I should like to kick you."



"No fear," answered Almayer, carelessly; "you are too weak for

that. You look starved."



"I don't think I have eaten anything for the last two days;

perhaps more--I don't remember. It does not matter. I am full

of live embers," said Willems, gloomily. "Look!" and he bared an

arm covered with fresh scars. "I have been biting myself to

forget in that pain the fire that hurts me there!" He struck his

breast violently with his fist, reeled under his own blow, fell

into a chair that stood near and closed his eyes slowly.



"Disgusting exhibition," said Almayer, loftily. "What could

father ever see in you? You are as estimable as a heap of

garbage."



"You talk like that! You, who sold your soul for a few

guilders," muttered Willems, wearily, without opening his eyes.



"Not so few," said Almayer, with instinctive readiness, and

stopped confused for a moment. He recovered himself quickly,

however, and went on: "But you--you have thrown yours away for

nothing; flung it under the feet of a damned savage woman who has

made you already the thing you are, and will kill you very soon,

one way or another, with her love or with her hate. You spoke

just now about guilders. You meant Lingard's money, I suppose.

Well, whatever I have sold, and for whatever price, I never meant

you--you of all people--to spoil my bargain. I feel pretty safe

though. Even father, even Captain Lingard, would not touch you

now with a pair of tongs; not with a ten-foot pole. . . ."



He spoke excitedly, all in one breath, and, ceasing suddenly,

glared at Willems and breathed hard through his nose in sulky

resentment. Willems looked at him steadily for a moment, then

got up.



"Almayer," he said resolutely, "I want to become a trader in

this place."



Almayer shrugged his shoulders.



"Yes. And you shall set me up. I want a house and trade

goods--perhaps a little money. I ask you for it."



"Anything else you want? Perhaps this coat?" and here Almayer

unbuttoned his jacket--"or my house--or my boots?"



"After all it's natural," went on Willems, without paying any

attention to Almayer--"it's natural that she should expect the

advantages which . . . and then I could shut up that old wretch

and then . . ."



He paused, his face brightened with the soft light of dreamy

enthusiasm, and he turned his eyes upwards. With his gaunt figure

and dilapidated appearance he looked like some ascetic dweller in

a wilderness, finding the reward of a self-denying life in a

vision of dazzling glory. He went on in an impassioned murmur--



"And then I would have her all to myself away from her

people--all to myself--under my own influence--to fashion--to

mould--to adore--to soften--to . . . Oh! Delight! And

then--then go away to some distant place where, far from all she

knew, I would be all the world to her! All the world to her!"



His face changed suddenly. His eyes wandered for awhile and

then became steady all at once.



"I would repay every cent, of course," he said, in a

business-like tone, with something of his old assurance, of his

old belief in himself, in it. "Every cent. I need not interfere

with your business. I shall cut out the small native traders. I

have ideas--but never mind that now. And Captain Lingard would

approve, I feel sure. After all it's a loan, and I shall be at

hand. Safe thing for you."



"Ah! Captain Lingard would approve! He would app . . ."

Almayer choked. The notion of Lingard doing something for

Willems enraged him. His face was purple. He spluttered

insulting words. Willems looked at him coolly.



"I assure you, Almayer," he said, gently, "that I have good

grounds for my demand."



"Your cursed impudence!"



"Believe me, Almayer, your position here is not so safe as you

may think. An unscrupulous rival here would destroy your trade

in a year. It would be ruin. Now Lingard's long absence gives

courage to certain individuals. You know?--I have heard much

lately. They made proposals to me . . . You are very much alone

here. Even Patalolo . . ."



"Damn Patalolo! I am master in this place."



"But, Almayer, don't you see . . ."



"Yes, I see. I see a mysterious ass," interrupted Almayer,

violently. "What is the meaning of your veiled threats? Don't

you think I know something also? They have been intriguing for

years--and nothing has happened. The Arabs have been hanging

about outside this river for years--and I am still the only

trader here; the master here. Do you bring me a declaration of

war? Then it's from yourself only. I know all my other enemies.



I ought to knock you on the head. You are not worth powder and

shot though. You ought to be destroyed with a stick--like a

snake."



Almayer's voice woke up the little girl, who sat up on the pillow

with a sharp cry. He rushed over to the chair, caught up the

child in his arms, walked back blindly, stumbled against Willems'

hat which lay on the floor, and kicked it furiously down the

steps.



"Clear out of this! Clear out!" he shouted.



Willems made an attempt to speak, but Almayer howled him down.



"Take yourself off! Don't you see you frighten the child--you

scarecrow! No, no! dear," he went on to his little daughter,

soothingly, while Willems walked down the steps slowly. "No.

Don't cry. See! Bad man going away. Look! He is afraid of

your papa. Nasty, bad man. Never come back again. He shall

live in the woods and never come near my little girl. If he

comes papa will kill him--so!" He struck his fist on the rail of

the balustrade to show how he would kill Willems, and, perching

the consoled child on his shoulder held her with one hand, while

he pointed toward the retreating figure of his visitor.



"Look how he runs away, dearest," he said, coaxingly. "Isn't he

funny. Call 'pig' after him, dearest. Call after him."



The seriousness of her face vanished into dimples. Under the long

eyelashes, glistening with recent tears, her big eyes sparkled

and danced with fun. She took firm hold of Almayer's hair with

one hand, while she waved the other joyously and called out with

all her might, in a clear note, soft and distinct like the pipe

of a bird:--



"Pig! Pig! Pig!"