Chapter VII: They Return
Some complicated game had been playing up and down the hillside
all the afternoon. What it was and exactly how the players
had sided, Lucy was slow to discover. Mr. Eager had met them with
a questioning eye. Charlotte had repulsed him with much small
talk. Mr. Emerson, seeking his son, was told whereabouts to find
him. Mr. Beebe, who wore the heated aspect of a neutral, was
bidden to collect the factions for the return home. There was a
general sense of groping and bewilderment. Pan had been amongst
them--not the great god Pan, who has been buried these two
thousand years, but the little god Pan, who presides over social
contretemps and unsuccessful picnics. Mr. Beebe had lost every
one, and had consumed in solitude the tea-basket which he had
brought up as a pleasant surprise. Miss Lavish had lost Miss
Bartlett. Lucy had lost Mr. Eager. Mr. Emerson had lost George.
Miss Bartlett had lost a mackintosh square. Phaethon had lost the
That last fact was undeniable. He climbed on to the box
shivering, with his collar up, prophesying the swift approach of
bad weather. "Let us go immediately," he told them. "The
signorino will walk."
"All the way? He will be hours," said Mr. Beebe.
"Apparently. I told him it was unwise." He would look no one in
the face; perhaps defeat was particularly mortifying for him. He
alone had played skilfully, using the whole of his instinct,
while the others had used scraps of their intelligence. He alone
had divined what things were, and what he wished them to be. He
alone had interpreted the message that Lucy had received five
days before from the lips of a dying man. Persephone, who spends
half her life in the grave--she could interpret it also. Not so
these English. They gain knowledge slowly, and perhaps too late.
The thoughts of a cab-driver, however just, seldom affect the
lives of his employers. He was the most competent of Miss
Bartlett's opponents, but infinitely the least dangerous. Once
back in the town, he and his insight and his knowledge would
trouble English ladies no more. Of course, it was most
unpleasant; she had seen his black head in the bushes; he might
make a tavern story out of it. But after all, what have we to do
with taverns? Real menace belongs to the drawing-room. It was of
drawing-room people that Miss Bartlett thought as she journeyed
downwards towards the fading sun. Lucy sat beside her; Mr. Eager
sat opposite, trying to catch her eye; he was vaguely suspicious.
They spoke of Alessio Baldovinetti.
Rain and darkness came on together. The two ladies huddled
together under an inadequate parasol. There was a lightning
flash, and Miss Lavish who was nervous, screamed from the
carriage in front. At the next flash, Lucy screamed also. Mr.
Eager addressed her professionally:
"Courage, Miss Honeychurch, courage and faith. If I might say so,
there is something almost blasphemous in this horror of the
elements. Are we seriously to suppose that all these clouds, all
this immense electrical display, is simply called into existence
to extinguish you or me?"
"Even from the scientific standpoint the chances against our
being struck are enormous. The steel knives, the only articles
which might attract the current, are in the other carriage. And,
in any case, we are infinitely safer than if we were walking.
Courage--courage and faith."
Under the rug, Lucy felt the kindly pressure of her cousin's
hand. At times our need for a sympathetic gesture is so great
that we care not what exactly it signifies or how much we may
have to pay for it afterwards. Miss Bartlett, by this timely
exercise of her muscles, gained more than she would have got in
hours of preaching or cross examination.
She renewed it when the two carriages stopped, half into
"Mr. Eager!" called Mr. Beebe. "We want your assistance. Will you
interpret for us?"
"George!" cried Mr. Emerson. "Ask your driver which way George
went. The boy may lose his way. He may be killed."
"Go, Mr. Eager," said Miss Bartlett. don't ask our driver; our
driver is no help. Go and support poor Mr. Beebe--, he is nearly
"He may be killed!" cried the old man. "He may be killed!"
"Typical behaviour," said the chaplain, as he quitted the
carriage. "In the presence of reality that kind of person
invariably breaks down."
"What does he know?" whispered Lucy as soon as they were alone.
"Charlotte, how much does Mr. Eager know?"
"Nothing, dearest; he knows nothing. But--" she pointed at the
driver-"HE knows everything. Dearest, had we better? Shall I?"
She took out her purse. "It is dreadful to be entangled with
low-class people. He saw it all." Tapping Phaethon's back with her
guide-book, she said, "Silenzio!" and offered him a franc.
"Va bene," he replied, and accepted it. As well this ending to
his day as any. But Lucy, a mortal maid, was disappointed in him.
There was an explosion up the road. The storm had struck the
overhead wire of the tramline, and one of the great supports had
fallen. If they had not stopped perhaps they might have been
hurt. They chose to regard it as a miraculous preservation, and
the floods of love and sincerity, which fructify every hour of
life, burst forth in tumult. They descended from the carriages;
they embraced each other. It was as joyful to be forgiven past
unworthinesses as to forgive them. For a moment they realized
vast possibilities of good.
The older people recovered quickly. In the very height of their
emotion they knew it to be unmanly or unladylike. Miss Lavish
calculated that, even if they had continued, they would not have
been caught in the accident. Mr. Eager mumbled a temperate
prayer. But the drivers, through miles of dark squalid road,
poured out their souls to the dryads and the saints, and Lucy
poured out hers to her cousin.
"Charlotte, dear Charlotte, kiss me. Kiss me again. Only you can
understand me. You warned me to be careful. And I--I thought I
"Do not cry, dearest. Take your time."
"I have been obstinate and silly--worse than you know, far worse.
Once by the river--Oh, but he isn't killed--he wouldn't be
killed, would he?"
The thought disturbed her repentance. As a matter of fact, the
storm was worst along the road; but she had been near danger, and
so she thought it must be near to every one.
"I trust not. One would always pray against that."
"He is really--I think he was taken by surprise, just as I was
before. But this time I'm not to blame; I want you to believe
that. I simply slipped into those violets. No, I want to be
really truthful. I am a little to blame. I had silly thoughts.
The sky, you know, was gold, and the ground all blue, and for
a moment he looked like some one in a book."
"In a book?"
"Heroes--gods--the nonsense of schoolgirls."
"But, Charlotte, you know what happened then."
Miss Bartlett was silent. Indeed, she had little more to learn.
With a certain amount of insight she drew her young cousin
affectionately to her. All the way back Lucy's body was shaken by
deep sighs, which nothing could repress.
"I want to be truthful," she whispered. "It is so hard to be
"Don't be troubled, dearest. Wait till you are calmer. We will
talk it over before bed-time in my room."
So they re-entered the city with hands clasped. It was a shock to
the girl to find how far emotion had ebbed in others. The storm
had ceased, and Mr. Emerson was easier about his son. Mr. Beebe
had regained good humour, and Mr. Eager was already snubbing Miss
Lavish. Charlotte alone she was sure of--Charlotte, whose
exterior concealed so much insight and love.
The luxury of self-exposure kept her almost happy through the
long evening. She thought not so much of what had happened as of
how she should describe it. All her sensations, her spasms of
courage, her moments of unreasonable joy, her mysterious
discontent, should be carefully laid before her cousin. And
together in divine confidence they would disentangle and
interpret them all.
"At last," thought she, "I shall understand myself. I shan't
again be troubled by things that come out of nothing, and mean I
don't know what."
Miss Alan asked her to play. She refused vehemently. Music seemed
to her the employment of a child. She sat close to her cousin,
who, with commendable patience, was listening to a long story
about lost luggage. When it was over she capped it by a story of
her own. Lucy became rather hysterical with the delay. In vain
she tried to check, or at all events to accelerate, the tale. It
was not till a late hour that Miss Bartlett had recovered her
luggage and could say in her usual tone of gentle reproach:
"Well, dear, I at all events am ready for Bedfordshire. Come into
my room, and I will give a good brush to your hair."
With some solemnity the door was shut, and a cane chair placed
for the girl. Then Miss Bartlett said "So what is to be done?"
She was unprepared for the question. It had not occurred to her
that she would have to do anything. A detailed exhibition of her
emotions was all that she had counted upon.
"What is to be done? A point, dearest, which you alone can
The rain was streaming down the black windows, and the great room
felt damp and chilly, One candle burnt trembling on the chest of
drawers close to Miss Bartlett's toque, which cast monstrous and
fantastic shadows on the bolted door. A tram roared by in the
dark, and Lucy felt unaccountably sad, though she had long since
dried her eyes. She lifted them to the ceiling, where the griffins
and bassoons were colourless and vague, the very ghosts of joy.
"It has been raining for nearly four hours," she said at last.
Miss Bartlett ignored the remark.
"How do you propose to silence him?"
"My dear girl, no; Mr. George Emerson."
Lucy began to pace up and down the room.
"I don't understand," she said at last.
She understood very well, but she no longer wished to be
"How are you going to stop him talking about it?"
"I have a feeling that talk is a thing he will never do."
"I, too, intend to judge him charitably. But unfortunately I have
met the type before. They seldom keep their exploits to
"Exploits?" cried Lucy, wincing under the horrible plural.
"My poor dear, did you suppose that this was his first? Come here
and listen to me. I am only gathering it from his own remarks. Do
you remember that day at lunch when he argued with Miss Alan that
liking one person is an extra reason for liking another?"
"Yes," said Lucy, whom at the time the argument had pleased.
"Well, I am no prude. There is no need to call him a wicked young
man, but obviously he is thoroughly unrefined. Let us put it down
to his deplorable antecedents and education, if you wish. But
we are no farther on with our question. What do you propose to
An idea rushed across Lucy's brain, which, had she thought of it
sooner and made it part of her, might have proved victorious.
"I propose to speak to him," said she.
Miss Bartlett uttered a cry of genuine alarm.
"You see, Charlotte, your kindness--I shall never forget it.
But--as you said--it is my affair. Mine and his."
"And you are going to IMPLORE him, to BEG him to keep silence?"
"Certainly not. There would be no difficulty. Whatever you ask
him he answers, yes or no; then it is over. I have been
frightened of him. But now I am not one little bit."
"But we fear him for you, dear. You are so young and
inexperienced, you have lived among such nice people, that you
cannot realize what men can be--how they can take a brutal
pleasure in insulting a woman whom her sex does not protect and
rally round. This afternoon, for example, if I had not arrived,
what would have happened?"
"I can't think," said Lucy gravely.
Something in her voice made Miss Bartlett repeat her question,
intoning it more vigorously.
"What would have happened if I hadn't arrived?"
"I can't think," said Lucy again.
"When he insulted you, how would you have replied?"
"I hadn't time to think. You came."
"Yes, but won't you tell me now what you would have done?"
"I should have--" She checked herself, and broke the sentence
off. She went up to the dripping window and strained her eyes
into the darkness. She could not think what she would have done.
"Come away from the window, dear," said Miss Bartlett. "You will
be seen from the road."
Lucy obeyed. She was in her cousin's power. She could not
modulate out the key of self-abasement in which she had started.
Neither of them referred again to her suggestion that she should
speak to George and settle the matter, whatever it was, with him.
Miss Bartlett became plaintive.
"Oh, for a real man! We are only two women, you and I. Mr. Beebe
is hopeless. There is Mr. Eager, but you do not trust him. Oh,
for your brother! He is young, but I know that his sister's
insult would rouse in him a very lion. Thank God, chivalry is not
yet dead. There are still left some men who can reverence woman."
As she spoke, she pulled off her rings, of which she wore
several, and ranged them upon the pin cushion. Then she blew into
her gloves and said:
"It will be a push to catch the morning train, but we must try."
"The train to Rome." She looked at her gloves critically.
The girl received the announcement as easily as it had been
"When does the train to Rome go?"
"Signora Bertolini would be upset."
"We must face that," said Miss Bartlett, not liking to say that
she had given notice already.
"She will make us pay for a whole week's pension."
"I expect she will. However, we shall be much more comfortable at
the Vyses' hotel. Isn't afternoon tea given there for nothing?"
"Yes, but they pay extra for wine." After this remark she
remained motionless and silent. To her tired eyes Charlotte
throbbed and swelled like a ghostly figure in a dream.
They began to sort their clothes for packing, for there was no
time to lose, if they were to catch the train to Rome. Lucy, when
admonished, began to move to and fro between the rooms, more
conscious of the discomforts of packing by candlelight than of a
subtler ill. Charlotte, who was practical without ability, knelt
by the side of an empty trunk, vainly endeavouring to pave it
with books of varying thickness and size. She gave two or three
sighs, for the stooping posture hurt her back, and, for all her
diplomacy, she felt that she was growing old. The girl heard her
as she entered the room, and was seized with one of those
emotional impulses to which she could never attribute a cause.
She only felt that the candle would burn better, the packing go
easier, the world be happier, if she could give and receive some
human love. The impulse had come before to-day, but never so
strongly. She knelt down by her cousin's side and took her in her
Miss Bartlett returned the embrace with tenderness and warmth.
But she was not a stupid woman, and she knew perfectly well that
Lucy did not love her, but needed her to love. For it was in
ominous tones that she said, after a long pause:
"Dearest Lucy, how will you ever forgive me?"
Lucy was on her guard at once, knowing by bitter experience what
forgiving Miss Bartlett meant. Her emotion relaxed, she modified
her embrace a little, and she said:
"Charlotte dear, what do you mean? As if I have anything to
"You have a great deal, and I have a very great deal to forgive
myself, too. I know well how much I vex you at every turn."
Miss Bartlett assumed her favourite role, that of the prematurely
"Ah, but yes! I feel that our tour together is hardly the success
I had hoped. I might have known it would not do. You want some
one younger and stronger and more in sympathy with you. I am too
uninteresting and old-fashioned--only fit to pack and unpack your
"My only consolation was that you found people more to your
taste, and were often able to leave me at home. I had my own poor
ideas of what a lady ought to do, but I hope I did not inflict
them on you more than was necessary. You had your own way about
these rooms, at all events."
"You mustn't say these things," said Lucy softly.
She still clung to the hope that she and Charlotte loved each
other, heart and soul. They continued to pack in silence.
"I have been a failure," said Miss Bartlett, as she struggled
with the straps of Lucy's trunk instead of strapping her own.
"Failed to make you happy; failed in my duty to your mother. She
has been so generous to me; I shall never face her again after
"But mother will understand. It is not your fault, this trouble,
and it isn't a disaster either."
"It is my fault, it is a disaster. She will never forgive me, and
rightly. Fur instance, what right had I to make friends with Miss
"When I was here for your sake? If I have vexed you it is equally
true that I have neglected you. Your mother will see this as
clearly as I do, when you tell her."
Lucy, from a cowardly wish to improve the situation, said:
"Why need mother hear of it?"
"But you tell her everything?"
"I suppose I do generally."
"I dare not break your confidence. There is something sacred in
it. Unless you feel that it is a thing you could not tell her."
The girl would not be degraded to this.
"Naturally I should have told her. But in case she should blame
you in any way, I promise I will not, I am very willing not to. I
will never speak of it either to her or to any one."
Her promise brought the long-drawn interview to a sudden close.
Miss Bartlett pecked her smartly on both cheeks, wished her
good-night, and sent her to her own room.
For a moment the original trouble was in the background. George
would seem to have behaved like a cad throughout; perhaps that
was the view which one would take eventually. At present she
neither acquitted nor condemned him; she did not pass judgment.
At the moment when she was about to judge him her cousin's voice
had intervened, and, ever since, it was Miss Bartlett who had
dominated; Miss Bartlett who, even now, could be heard sighing
into a crack in the partition wall; Miss Bartlett, who had really
been neither pliable nor humble nor inconsistent. She had worked
like a great artist; for a time--indeed, for years--she had been
meaningless, but at the end there was presented to the girl the
complete picture of a cheerless, loveless world in which the
young rush to destruction until they learn better--a shamefaced
world of precautions and barriers which may avert evil, but which
do not seem to bring good, if we may judge from those who have
used them most.
Lucy was suffering from the most grievous wrong which this world
has yet discovered: diplomatic advantage had been taken of her
sincerity, of her craving for sympathy and love. Such a wrong is
not easily forgotten. Never again did she expose herself without
due consideration and precaution against rebuff. And such a wrong
may react disastrously upon the soul.
The door-bell rang, and she started to the shutters. Before she
reached them she hesitated, turned, and blew out the candle. Thus
it was that, though she saw some one standing in the wet below,
he, though he looked up, did not see her.
To reach his room he had to go by hers. She was still dressed. It
struck her that she might slip into the passage and just say that
she would be gone before he was up, and that their extraordinary
intercourse was over.
Whether she would have dared to do this was never proved. At the
critical moment Miss Bartlett opened her own door, and her voice
"I wish one word with you in the drawing-room, Mr. Emerson,
Soon their footsteps returned, and Miss Bartlett said:
"Good-night, Mr. Emerson."
His heavy, tired breathing was the only reply; the chaperon had
done her work.
Lucy cried aloud: "It isn't true. It can't all be true. I want
not to be muddled. I want to grow older quickly."
Miss Bartlett tapped on the wall.
"Go to bed at once, dear. You need all the rest you can get."
In the morning they left for Rome.